This morning I woke up, went to the home office to print a t-shirt and then go to the shop to finish stock taking and work from 9 to 5. I went outside, 5 minutes later Abby woke up and my day just came to a total stand still. She wanted nobody but me. I handed her over to her dad so that I can finish the print. He went into the house with her (my office is about 15m from the house) but I could hear her going from a need for me into a full meltdown. I came running into the house to find her on the floor, blue in the face, her eyes swollen from crying and she just could not focus on anything else. I grabbed her and just held her. I had to make a decision right there on the spot that will change my life. I can’t do this anymore. I can’t do this to her anymore. My child needs me. She has special needs and I can’t pretend that it’s not the case. I will have to make a lot more decisions like this in the future. For now I know that we either have to turn our shop into an online shop only or get a temp to work 4 days a week. We are trying the last option for January. Let’s see how this go. But for me, my days in the actual shop is over for now. Her needs comes first. It’s been a good run, but I am mommy first, business owner second.
I will still run Geek World (will just do it from home) and I will still do very selective photoshoots and run Kleinskool Initiative for now. I am still deciding on the last two.